when i look at myself in the mirror,
after taking out my contact lenses,
i'm blurry and a ghost print of what
i should look like. what i find strange,
is the concept that i am the only person
who does, and will ever see, myself like
this.... and if i don't count the distance
that is a mountain range high, we look like
giants. there's no force behind these little
gestures, i just want you to know:

i want to want you here, right now, so
badly, that my stomach sort of hurts.

but it won't be possible until i get over you.